this is a true story

In the middle of last week, I stumbled upon a job I had read about before I came here, a volunteer opportunity working with the Chilean government education council and the U.N., teaching English in schools across Chile. I was really excited about this job, and I figured, based on the qualifications listed, that I would be an easy choice. I was about to "go public" with my excitement on Facebook and to my family back home, and then I woke up early Saturday morning and turned on the TV, started flipping channels and found CNN.

Unless you've been living under a rock, you know what I saw on CNN at Saturday morning. 8.8 magnitude earthquake. 700+ dead, at this point. What the heck? I mean, what am I supposed to think about this? I was deadset on that job, and not just that, it really seemed like it was going to be the right thing. My roommates have been telling me that this is God's clear way of letting me know that I shouldn't go, but why do I still feel like I should? I've been so frustrated since Saturday, just trying to sort all this out in my head. I know the saying that we make plans and God laughs, but I'm still feeling very strongly about this, so I'm just not sure what to think.